Nesting….

Okay, so since we’ve moved into our place we’ve had a spare bedroom…the trouble is I don’t like it being “spare”. I want to transform it into a wonderful nursery or toddler room, with color splashed here and fabric hanging there! I’ve learned the hard way with Charis, that my calendar isn’t always matching His. My “plan” was to start an adoption when Charis was an infant, and have our two little ones grow up closely together. Now fast forward three years and still we have yet to officially start our adoption! Was it laziness? I sure hope not=-)! Just lots of redirecting from our Lord, a long with a lot of research….and blog stalking! I know we are getting closer to getting things started, but can’t really work much on the spare room yet!  Why, you say? Cause we don’t know which child/ren He’s going to direct us too.

Over the past few years, my hearts changed a lot. Babies have always been my nitch! I loved seeing Charis explore everything for the first time (still do!), and was thrilled to make home made baby food, to breast feed, to babywear, and cloth diaper. So naturally I should adopt a baby right? I’ve been struggaling with the thought of only doing an infant-girl adoption for a while now…ever since I read the poem, A Waiting Child (a few posts down)! I’m not too emotional about things, but that poem brought tears to my eyes! So will we adopt a baby? I don’t know. Will we adopt a toddler? I don’t know! Boy or girl or both? I don’t know. The good thing is, my Father does. He knows the tears they’ve shed. He knows the number of hairs on their head! He knows what orphanage they’re at! He knows who their birth parents are….and most of all He knows how to bring us together! So in His perfect timing, I look forward to making that spare bedroom not so spare! Until then I’ll remain busy with my little lady! Since pics are fun, here’s some pics of random fun with our little one!

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August 30, 2009. adoption, Africa. Leave a comment.

Permisive will…

Today I was reading in 2 Kings 21. In it you see the result of God’s permissive will. I wonder how much I’ve tried to push for that…and still do sometimes! It proved that Hezekiah was much better off (and Israel as a whole) if he would have chosen God’s will for his life, instead of pushing for his own will! Even though something may seem better at the time, His will is perfect! Since I’ve been lacking in the picture department for a while, here’s a few of my little lady!

August 3, 2009. Uncategorized. 1 comment.

The Waiting Child

I saw you meet your child today

You kissed your baby joyfully

And as you walked away with her

I played pretend you’d chosen me.

I’m happy for the baby,

yet Inside I’m aching miserably

I want to plead as you go by,

“Does no-one want a child of three?”

I saw you meet your child today

In love with her before you met

And as I watched you take her out

I knew it wasn’t my turn yet.

I recognize you from last year!

I knew I’d seen your face before!

But you came for a second babe.

Does no-one want a child of four?

I saw you meet your child today

But this time there was something new

A nurse came in and took MY hand

And then she gave my hand to you.

Can this be true? I’m almost six!

And there are infants here, you see?

But then you kissed me and I knew

The child you picked this time was me.

August 2, 2009. adoption. Leave a comment.